So as a teenager you walk down the street. On the advertisement boards and posters etc. you see adverts for well I dunno, swimwear or something. You immediately look at it and think 'Gosh! how I'd like to look like her etc." Then you start comparing yourself to her - aren't my arms fat, aren't I just so fat in general and it goes on... Then your mind starts thinking well I could go on a diet or not eat any carbohydrate etc.....
This also happens when you watch TV and you're like oh wow they look so lovely - but I wouldn't look like that because I'm fat.
Every morning when I wake up I'm totally like - I'm fat. I breathe in and try to hide that, pinch myself to try and establish how much fat there actually is.
I now won't go out in public wearing t-shirts or anything that shows my bare arms because I feel like people will look at me and go - she's fat. Now I'm not that plump round the middle - well maybe a little bit but its my arms that I get most self - conscious about. I hate mufti days at school and am dreading the summer when we have to wear short sleeved shirts - I'll probably just wear my jumper and boil to death.....
Literally every time I eat something I have it before me on the plate and I'm like - how much carbohydrate has this got in, how much fat will I put on by eating this...usually I'll eat it anyway but sometimes I'll leave half the bowl and just pass it off as I'm not feeling too great!
You get self-conscious too about how your hair is, how you smell and generally how you look. So I've taken to wearing perfume and make-up to school and redoing my hair about 5 times every morning just to feel confident that I'm OK and to fit in with all the others.
Now there's a part of me that's like to I have to fit in, and then I go well at my last school I was bullied for not fitting in and teased and ended up depressed :( (talk about that another time). So then I go well it is so important to fit in because I don't want to end up like that again.
And what's scary is that all of this has happened to me in the past year and a half...I think the media influence has gone too far and is now not doing any good. I want to try and spread the word and these videos so that the media will do something about it!
Here is a video to prove the point - only very short:
http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=lUF2zbgBXwE
And this one should make you laugh but I'm not sure whether it's real or not:http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=
PLEASE COMMENT BLEOW IF YOU AGREE WITH ME ON THIS!
or alternatively if you don't agree-please comment and explain why you think the media influence like this is justified :)
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